Our first night together.

Im sitting in Sam’s room at 1:15 am because he wont look at me, talk to me, or touch me. I have never met someone so touchy. He has officially ruined our first night in the same house. I don’t know why Im surprised since ruining nights and being a jerk seems to be a hobby of his. I reread an old tumblr post about how I was so in love. I don’t feel it any more and he hasn’t even asked me out yet. He seems to always find a way to kill it for me before we ever really get started.It used to make me sad, but now it just makes me angry. It makes me resent him and it makes me resent myself for choosing to be with him. 

If he doesnt ask me out by the time Chris Bruney makes his way to San diego to visit, I WILL sleep with him.

And even though Im awake because of you; you have no trouble sleeping and it makes me want to slap you.